Yesterday I had a crappy day. I didn’t feel like doing much, I didn’t go into school, and I was miserable in work. It was one of those days where I just wanted to stay in bed at home.
I was stupid to think that reading a page of information would give me some sort of “cure,” but now I know that there’s a long road I have to go down, and there are going to be speed bumps along the way. Yesterday was the first time I’ve felt down in weeks. I wasn’t anxious, just down. I’m learning that this is normal. Lots of people’s moods vary, but I’m not very good at dealing with it. Ignoring the issue isn’t going to help, neither is giving into it. Yesterday I did give into it and didn’t go into school, which afterwards, I regretted.
Today is a new day, and I haven’t woken up in the best of moods, but I have got out of bed. Once I’ve finished writing this, I’m going to go have a shower and get ready for the day. And I’m going to make the most of today. Feeling like I’ve done something productive and used my time well always puts me in good spirits, whether that be going out with my friends, to see family, completing an assignment, or just cleaning up around the house. However, when I feel down or anxious, I want to stay in bed all day and wait for tomorrow, which is not productive in anyway possible. So then usually, my mood is carried onto the next day and I get stuck in a vicious circle. My theory is, if I push myself to get out of bed and get ready for the day, it will be the start to a successful day. I need to be the force to start the chain of the dominoes falling, and push that first one down. I need to start making myself get out of bed and get ready for the day. I hope that this will lead to more successful days.